Monday, January 10, 2011

Changing

Since becoming pregnant, I have not wanted to blog.  I don't know why, but I guess it is just that I'm changing.  Everything is changing and I don't want to miss a moment of that change.  I want to be entirely present in my life and for the life that is growing inside me.  I guess I am in a period of transition... and words fail me... I just feel instead.

This coming Wednesday marks the start of my 28th week, the third trimester.  I can hardly believe it.  This pregnancy has been amazing, as all pregnancies are, I imagine.  We did not know that I was pregnant until I was on the cusp of the 2nd trimester.  I have felt well (some nausea, always remedied by eating).  Despite my being on the low end of weight gain, the baby is growing and measuring as the baby should.  Blessings, too numerous to count.

I am changing in mind and body.

Our house is changing, too.  My husband seems to be "nesting", has anyone else experienced this phenomenon with their partner?  He is going room by room, getting everything "just so" for the baby.  I am taking bags of give-aways to the thrift store weekly.  Our shredder is getting quite the work out as we empty our three two-drawer file cabinets with the goal of whittling it down to one.  The office is well on its way to becoming the baby's room.  Our accumulation of "stuff" is giving way to make space for the baby.

I have been thinking and thinking about this next statement... Our relationship is changing, too.  It is still strong and loving and collaborative and... as it should be... as we want it to be... It is changing, but only getting better.  Changing in the best way.  It is just a feeling, no words.

We are becoming.  I am becoming.  He is becoming.  The baby is becoming.

Change has never been more real or more welcome.

9 comments:

  1. The fact of your hubby changing and preparing alongside you is a fantastic thing and it is great that you are both excited to welcome your new little baby into your lives. Thank you for updating us. All the best.

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  2. im so glad you wrote this post! changing together is a beautiful thing in a relationship, and baby is the best way to bring about such a change... mwa! - irma

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  3. Weather its your first child, or your sixth child. Jason and I find ourselves changing with every moment, day, month, year that goes by. The kiddos change from moments after their birth, to adults in matter of seconds. We go from dirty diapers to school frustrations in matter of minutes. We are of course at every different stage of life with our kiddos. Change is good. Change is healthy. Change is a way of life. Do I like change? Not all the time. I am stuck in my ways...The way I clean, the way I organize, the way I do the exact same thing every morning. But I know that everyday will bring something new. So you guys walking this journey together is the best "CHANGE" there is. For it will never be the same today, and tomorrow will be just as different. Enjoy it. The time goes by so quickly.

    Kiley

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  5. I'm so excited for you both! My mom told me around Christmas time, and I've been meaning to email and congratulate you ever since... can't wait to see pics of the little one when he/she arrives :) xoxo

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  6. Much happiness to you and yours. Your post was wonderfully written and moving. I've been watching my brother with his new baby girl and I can see that nesting you were talking about and that inner glow of good change.

    Lazarus Lupin
    http://strangespanner.blogspot.com/
    art and review

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  7. I am sure your little miss has arrived by now. I am hoping you and your family are enjoying your newest addition and your feeling great. Just wanted to let you know we were thinking of you.

    Many Hugs
    Kiley

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  8. Thinking of you and the baby!! If you ever feel up to blogging again it would be great to see her!

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